
The first half of this year was one of the hardest times of my life, and I had fallen into a trap of focusing on my grief. I was full of sorrow and anger for the dream that I had lost, and it felt like I was just surviving each day. I could still love and cherish my daughter, but I didn't love my life. My life had taken an unplanned direction.
About half way through this challenging year, I decided to write this blog. I knew I was providing an enriching play environment for my daughter, and I wanted to document the joy that I was bringing to her life. By focusing on the beauty of parenting in the present, I hoped I could see the abundance of love and light in my life rather than focusing on the dreams lost and future changed.

By spending time writing about the positive environment I provide to my daughter and family, I have become more grateful that I have arrived at this time and place in my life.
My time and place provided ....
me to be born to a teenage mother who chose to love and provide for me.
food and shelter even in times of need.
a free public school system.
the opportunity for my mother to earn a college and law degree while raising three children.
a college degree from a school that challenged me and broadened my scope of the world and life.
a healthy job market so I could obtain a teaching job right of school.
internet dating so I could meet my devoted and loving husband.
a community supportive of cross cultural marriage.
advanced medical technology so we could conceive our daughter.
a career field for my husband that allows me to be stay at home mom, the best job I've ever had.
My time and place brought me to this journey of blog writing. By documenting the life I am living now, I am able to recognize that I am living a bountiful life. I have grown to appreciate my life is full of love, faith, health, growth, beauty, devotion, simplicity, creativity, and challenge.

So this journey of time and place has brought me the incredible gift of my life now. I still feel sorrow for my loss, but it doesn't consume my life, the life that I have learned this year to love. A life of living in the light of today and feeling grateful for it.
Happy Thanksgiving to you and your beautiful families!